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2003-03-09My grandparents are not taking my feelings seriously. It fucking hurts that it looks like being another 5 or 6 months until I see him again. I was supposed to be leaving NOW and they act like it is no big deal that I had to cancel all that. I know my grandfather is sick and that is why I am here for him but goddamn it what I had to give up hurt so much, so please take my feelings seriously.
I just looked at the malta airport site and his flight is airbourne right now.It left at 8:14. I'm crying again.
I don't even know when I can see him again let alone when we can marry and be together all the time. Everything is so up in the air and it hurts. He wants me to leave in autumn but my grandparents are being so difficult. They don't seem to want me to ever go, and someday I have to. I can't stay here forever. I have to have my own life. I am staying here during these difficult times but eventually I have to leave.
They are acting so shitty about it. They act like I won't achieve it.
But I will.