It's over. It was hard, a lot of tears on both sides. Galen has upset me by saying that his life is basically over. I want him to move on and be happy, but he seems determined that it is me or nothing. It makes me so sad.
Does he think it doesn't hurt me too? It has been 4 years of my life i've spent with him. I didn't just wake up and think 'hmmm well that was no big deal'. I've cried and tried so hard the past 5 months to keep it together. I haven't even been able to admit to myself that it wasn't working for me anymore. I keep lying and saying it would be ok.....well it isn't. The last few days have been nothing but tears and pain for me. Yes I ended it and yes I decided to no longer be in the relationship...but it hurt me too.
I'm still hurting.
Later: I saw what he wrote. I am sick of him going back and forth between being understanding and saying he knows why it happened, and acting like I am a heartless bitch who just did this to hurt him. If you think that about me Galen, you never really knew me and it is good we are over.
I'm thinking of moving to a new diary and giving out the address to a select few only.
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