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2003-06-15No, I've never beaten her..I have shouted at her and smacked her, becuause I am too tired..but that is just me making excuses for the shitty behaviour. I am a poor excuse for a "mother" and I am beginning to think I should never have kids of my own. I have to write this here because no one knows how awful I truly am, and seem to think I am a sweet and good person. I am not. I think I am downright abusive. I hate who I am now and try to change but I never do because I can't control my goddamn temper.
My family is falling apart. Something else has happened that I can't talk about (due to family wishing it to be kept private). Something has happened to a family member. It horrifies me and I am so upset and don't know what to do.