< Is my way of coping the wrong way? >
2003-07-07Gdad is so tired all the time and it makes me sad. His condition seems to be getting worse. We have to wait and see what the tests show when he visits the hospital later in the week.
Sometimes i wonder if my diary seems cold because I babble about stuff when my gdad is so ill....but I feel like I'd go insane if I thought about it all day every day. Sometimes I just need a distraction, so I can feel ok for just a little while and recharge my batteries. It keeps me going. Am I selfish?